11 September 2011

a decade later

today was a hard day, much tougher than i ever imagined it would be, full of memories of the 9-11 attack on this country ten years ago. even a decade later, i cannot bear to see the photographs, watch the video, hear the accounts of that day. this week i've tried to watch some of the tributes that have emerged but even they are still too jarring, too surreal. today i found myself silently crying at times and unconsciously praying at others - and i was full of restless energy. so i created a baking frenzy in the kitchen this morning, my default activity when i am upset. later i cleaned and scrubbed and organized, trying to create order. outside, i marveled at the sunshine and the bright blue sky, so reminiscent of that tragic day. at the end of the day, i went out to find the perfect photo to represent my feelings about today. and i just couldn't.

8 comments:

Jenny Schouten Short said...

I know. It was a hard day with too many memories. I cried. xo Jenny

Linda Chapman said...

It was hard for me, too. I prayed and thought and remembered. I read my journal from 9-11-01....I am glad no new violence happened today. That was a prayer I prayed. Never a repeat of 9-11-01.

Just Two Chicks said...

Beautiful photo just the same. I think the best way to honor those who lost their lives that horrific day, is to walk outside, take a deep breath, and love this world in all of it's natural beauty.

Anne said...

I was thinking of all those who suffered on that day.

There were memorial services all over our country and I also watched much of the coverage from America.

I was moved to tears many times, especially when families came to the reflecting pools and started to touch the names of their loved ones and make rubbings of their names.

It was a hard day.

Never again, please.

~she~ said...

I agree...it's still too hard to think about. Hubby and I were watching a special last night and I actually asked him to turn it back to the football game. It was too difficult to handle. Now I know how people who survived Pearl Harbor, Korea, and WWII feel when those annivarsaries roll around.

Nora said...

I watched the ceremony. My thoughts are with you.

chris said...

Just Two Chicks, i thought the same thing - so that was sort of a theme for this month's 12 of 12 - coming soon. well, maybe in a few days. definitely by the weekend!

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