01 November 2009

confession

tonight, i have been reading about the fine line between grieving a loss and feeling excessively sorry for oneself. admittedly, i have spent today doing a lot of both. tomorrow i hope i can go back to the former. but on this, her birthday, i am feeling a bit orphaned - and i really miss my mom.

4 comments:

Samantha said...

This Monday my mum burie her mum. They weren't particularly close but as with all family there was much love there. I didn't know my Nana all that well, we didn't live closeby and all I have of her are a few grainy memories from childhood, and more vivid sadder ones of her declining years in the home. So I kept my eyes on the back of my mother's head during the service and tried not to think about the day I will be in her shoes because I can't imagine the pain. My sympathies to you.

chris said...

samantha: my sympathies to you as well. it's so hard for a daughter to lose her mother. there's still so much i want to share with her - so i do, privately. silly, perhaps, but it helps. maybe you could try that with your nana. and go give your mum a big hug and a kiss while you still can. thanks for the visit and the comment. ~chris

hunky dory said...

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Marie Grady Palcic said...

I haven't been blogging long, so i keep looking at other people's blogs for inspiration. i read yours alot. My mother died also and, November 1, 2009 was her birthday and the first one i spent without her. she died 11/13/08. i felt her presence every minute and missed her terribly so i can totally identify with your loss and grieving. i don't know you but i feel i know your sadness. hope you are feeling her presence throughout your days...